it is well with my soul

this past week, we lost baby Henson #2.

he or she, whom i call Mikka, was only about 6 weeks in gestational age.  i don’t even know what to write.  so much has changed.  i feel closer to my husband, naturally, as we went through this together.  i feel an even deeper relationship with the Lord as He comforted me every step and i feel so overwhelmed with joy as i look at the baby boy i was blessed with.

it’s during these times that i have to cling tightly to what i know is true about God.  He cares for me and He does everything for His glory (those are just a few of the million truths about Him).

here’s something:

9remember the former things of old;
for I am God, and there is no other;
   I am God, and there is none like me,
10declaring the end from the beginning
   and from ancient times things not yet done,
saying, ‘My counsel shall stand,
   and I will accomplish all my purpose,’
11calling a bird of prey from the east,
   the man of my counsel from a far country.
I have spoken, and I will bring it to pass;
   I have purposed, and I will do it. (Is 46:9-11)

He declared the end from the beginning.  He is in control and He has a purpose.

and then there’s this, too.  it’s the not-so-well-known part of It Is Well with My Soul

But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!

and there it is…hope.

i hope for the Lord.  for Him to do a good work in me.

i hope for the sky, life, heaven.  not just dying to rid of sickness and sadness.

i hope for that frightening angel’s voice. that messenger from the Lord.

i hope for Jesus.

and so, i’m OK.  we’re OK.  we are sad, but the King of Kings is faithful and i am so humbled by His grace and mercy over my life and the lives of my children.

happy birthday, mikka.  we will celebrate your life and give glory to the Lord.

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6 comments on “it is well with my soul

  1. Sarah-Kate says:

    Love you two….this blog was…..beautiful. Happy birthday Mikka….we love you!~

  2. tara says:

    i am so sorry. praying for you friend. this post was sweet. and yes, so very happy there is hope in Jesus. i’ve been there. it was before masyn or haden. and it was a heart-wrenching experience. but i know that it has made me more grateful for the healthy children that i rock to sleep each night. i never want to take a moment with either of them forgranted. love you shari!

    i know that you’ve probably heard this song before but i love it … http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqCfVuPd-QY

  3. Mom Henson says:

    Baby Mikka Hope Henson, this grandma can’t wait to see you! The sweet, brief joy you brought to us all, served to remind us of your Maker. You are a blessing because of this!

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  5. auntie cole says:

    i love you lots, mikka henson.

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