“Hello Mr. and Mrs. Henson, I wanted to let you know that we have processed your application…”
we are officially beginning the process to becoming foster parents. our training is the last two weeks of october where we will find out lots more about the process. our prayer is that we become ‘active’ around the time that caleb is two. we will wait on the Lord and His plan and see how he changes our hearts through everything.
so, we’re having another baby.
not exactly the way i thought it would be happening.
i won’t be with child.
no need for picking out biblical names.
the nursery will have to be yellow. or green. or yellow and green.
not robots. or whimsical themes.
no party to celebrate the arrival. whenver that will be.
no birth plan.
the only thing i have to show we are ‘expecting’ is a million documents and e-mails.
it’s just different this time around.
and it’s awesome.
this is what God is teaching me.
to lay it all down.
the selfishness of seeking attention.
the anxiety of not knowing the sex. or temperament.
the desire to want material things.
the lack of trust in His placement of His children.
the impatience through the training process.
He is teaching me to love parenting.
all of parenting.
not just the exciting times pregnancy may bring.
i don’t need Jesus + pregnancy to be a loving, godly parent.
i just need Jesus.