too much

there are so many things i want to write about, i think my head might explode.

i think i will start with some links.

like this one titled “after the airport”.  it’s about home life after adoption…just a glimpse into the trauma a little girl from ethiopa faces each day and how a mom handles it all.   i love how she says “You cannot just be into adoption to adopt; you have to be into parenting.”

and this one titled “the truth about marital compatibility”. really great advice for singles and married alike on how to keep a holy marriage.

“I don’t want my children to be happy” is an old one from one of my favorite blogs.  i just recently found it because i wasn’t following her back in february of 2010.  holiness over happiness has been my theme since i became a mom…wish i would have learned it sooner, like, when i got married! ha!

things are about to get crazy and i want to write down all the current crazy so i don’t forget them before i forget to write down the future crazy.

we dropped the morning nap last week so there is even less time for me to sit and write and add photos, etc.  which is fine by me.  when i choose to blog during his one nap, the laundry stays put in the dryer, the dishes stay in the sink, and the comforter in our bedroom stays on the floor.  which is fine by me.  e-mails go unreturned. facebook gets deactivated (well, pretty much), and phone calls are ignored. which is fine by me.

because now i get a once-a-day napping toddler who kisses me on demand, hugs me, babbles at me, and tries to help me sweep his graham cracker crumbs off the floor…with a regular sized broom.  i get a full hour of cuddle time in the mornings because he is now old enough to watch sesame street on the couch while i do my bible study.  i get to plan activities that involve matching colors, fine motor skills, and language development and see his growing mind in action!

this is my lot in life.

and it’s not always ‘fine by me’, but today it is.

each day i get up and i think about the once-a-day napping toddler who will no doubt cry when i change his diaper, somehow find a time when i have left the door to the bathroom open and splash in the toilet, continue to push me while i make lunch, get peanut butter in his ears and on my couch (even though i KNOW i cleaned his hands), and push the power button on the xbox 4 billion times even though i tell him not to.

and some days i think about doing this for the next 5-10 years, depending on how many kids we have, and i get overwhelmed to the point of not wanting to get out of bed. ever.

and it’s on those days that i ask myself “can i do this? just for today, can i do this and enjoy it?”

yes, yes i can.

Lord, change my heart towards motherhood.  give me the strength to love caleb well and to do things without grumbling or questioning.  amen.

and now for some regularly scheduled photos of the day after his 2nd haircut.  the boy was getting shaggy!  and now he’s clean cut and just as handsome as ever! and such a big boy sitting in his chair all by himself!

now, not everyone all at once as we don’t want to wake all the sleeping babies, but “AWWWW” is most definitely appropriate for this next photo.

(you see that bottom left tooth? thaaaat’s a molar and he’s cut two more just like it in the past two weeks!)

2 comments on “too much

  1. Lauren Zaffos says:

    I will be praying along side you for all of the above. I’m so thankful to Him for his patience with us as mothers, and so thankful to have a community (whether online or in our town) of moms who desire for our hearts to be in line with His. Thanks for sharing!

  2. mom henson says:

    AAAWWWWW! I’m praying too as you strive to raise warriors for the King!

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