i must confess that i have let the too many things of this world stress me out this week. this is why i know i could never go back to work full time and still be the loving, caring mom that i’m trying to be. it’s just too much. i take on too much. my husband tells me this all the time.
i went out of town and stayed overnight at my mom’s house this week. it was an unplanned trip so i was a bit frazzled to say the least. caleb, who is notorious for being such a content baby, sensed my stress and wanted nothing to do with mimi, pa, auntie, or anywhere else than on mommy’s hip. which just added to my stress. at one point, he was sitting on my lap and my sister was clapping with him. he was laughing and he reached out for her. my heart leapt and i was so happy that he was finally back to ‘normal’. she scooped him up and sat him on her lap (which was right next to me…our knees were touchging!). once he realized where he was, he immediately started sobbing. and it wasn’t just a whine. tears, tears, everywhere.
i didn’t know what to do. i knew it was my fault and i couldn’t fix it. my shoulders were tightening again and i just felt so exhausted. very much like when he was a newborn (which, to this day, is the hardest thing i’ve ever been through…well, besides labor). during all of this, my husband sends me a text message. we rarely communicate during the day unless it’s necessary. his job just doesn’t allow for it.
“And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.” 1 john 2:17 (ESV)
how perfect he is for me. i had not had the chance to discuss anything with him. he knew i was stressed, but had no idea the weight of my worries. i love him dearly! how thankful i am for such a strong leader in my life. where would i be? anyway, we have been studying 1 john and so i knew the previous passage very well. DO NOT LOVE THE WORLD is the main message (just one of many in this awesome chapter). but, i was greatly encouraged by those two words “passing away”.
what joy i have knowing we are in the final days! the world is passing away. it’s DYING. one day there will be no more sin. everything on earth will be finished! darkness will be light. good will overtake evil. and Truth will reign over all!
hope is so powerful.
put your hope in Jesus. in the fact that we, humans, are a sinful race. we cannot even come near to the Holy One because we, you, I, am wicked and evil. as a matter of fact, we should all be put to death (romans 6:23) in the exact opposite place of God (hell). but, Jesus, sweet and precious Jesus, is the propitiation for our sins! He is righteous! He is our advocate! and for why would He do that? because God loves us! He wants all of us to know him (1 tim 2:3) and to believe that He sent His Son as a ransom for our sins. and if you, we, i believe in the weight of our depravity and that He came to take our place by dying on the cross for our sins (rom 5:8) and then rose from the dead three days later then you shall be saved and receive the gift of eternal salvation with Him in heaven which is the forgiveness of all sins. but, don’t stop there! sin is a daily battle in which we must continue to confess, ask forgiveness, and repent (1 john 1:9).
all glory and praise be to the One who has placed me in the direction of love and not death.